My journey from darkness towards light

It would not be fair to say that life has been unfair with me, but for most of my life I believed this. I believed that I am a good person who people have treated badly. I thought my arrogance was justified because I have suffered enough in life and my arrogance was a means to express my pain. I had this misconception that I always act with good intentions for others, even if it meant that I would get hurt. In short, I was the epitome of goodness in my eyes. Nothing was my fault ever. I was miserable my entire life and I blamed it on others- my parents, my relationships, my seniors from office and almost everyone.

Suri broke my illusions. She held the hammer of truth and struck down the walls of fantasies that I had built in my mind. And she did it with utmost love and care. I cannot imagine the pain she must have endured to pull me out of my misery, because I resisted her help. Every time she tried to help me I fought with her because my ego was too dense. I could not see how pathetic I was. So I blamed her too, for trying to make my life better, for creating chaos in my life.

I am in a much better place now. The quality of my life has improved. As I started seeing my own darkness, I started becoming humble. I was never an empathic person, but I feel that seeds of empathy and compassion have been sown into my heart after all these years. I don't feel miserable now. My ego and arrogance has also come down significantly. I do not think I have fully come out of darkness, but my journey has begun. And I owe it to my sister, Suri.

I am a testament that you too can come out of darkness and break free of illusions. The only thing you need is guidance and someone compassionate enough to guide you. Suri did not help me because she felt bound by sisterly bond, she helped me because she saw a person in need of help. She does not discriminate between people. She loves everyone. She is such a devotee of Maharishi Ramana who does not feel separated from him. She is forever in company of Maharishi. This is why I know she will be able to help you. I hope you find some comfort in my story, that you too can come out of pain and hurt. I wish the best for you.

- Pratibha S